And just like that…

… Everything changes.

Everything is still a total clusterfuck. I’m not going to get into any details. Maybe I will at some point. Honestly, I am not quite sure if there would be any legal ramifications.

I am in pain.

I feel like I’ve been in a serious car accident.

I wasn’t.

My Mom is sleeping on my couch.

My Dad?

My Dad… My Dad is… I’d rather not broadcast that. But he’s not here. And he won’t be. He won’t be in my house or near me or my girls for a long time. Probably forever. I think I might actually even be okay with that. Right now, I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t even really want to think about it. I’m not even sure I could if I tried. I am feeling sort of numb at the moment. Fleeting moments of intense emotion; rage, terror, crushing sadness, utter disbelief. But mostly?

Mostly just nothing at all.

 

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